Showing posts with label me. Show all posts
Showing posts with label me. Show all posts

Monday, November 28, 2011

Working Out

I guess Thanksgiving has me feeling guilty. I've been meaning to be better about working out. I started with Camp Gladiator back in September, and it was awesome. The workouts are intense and there's always someone there to keep you going. The only thing I don't like about it is the times/places the workouts are available. While there are a number of locations, the times at the locations closest to me aren't all that convenient to my schedule. While I still do occasional camps, I'm not good about going every chance I get. I've been seeing the Bodyrock workouts on Pinterest for months. Today, I'm getting started. The home workout revolution has swayed me. All of Bodyrock.tv's workouts are fairly short and the results look amazing. Maybe for the New Year I'll consider changing my diet too. Maybe.

Today: I'm starting with some of her older stuff. Today we're starting with the first part of her Rock Your Body group of workouts. Wish me luck!

Think you wanna join in on the fun? Check it out: http://www.bodyrock.tv/ 



Friday, August 5, 2011

Things to Do in August

8 Things I'd Like to Accomplish to August:

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1. More than 10 blog posts.

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2. Figuring out a new workout routine (maybe not ACTUALLY going to the gym, but at least getting motivated--baby steps!)

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3. Getting my AC fixed.

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4. Sleeping more than 4-5 hours a night.

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5. Cooking dinner at least once.

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6. Finding a new hobby (preferably an active one).

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7. Planning my vacations for the fall.

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8. Reading more (both for residency and pleasure).


Thursday, August 4, 2011

Yes, It is All About Me, B****

Just about once every three to four months I actually take the time to read through my evaluations for residency. In one year, I had 37 evaluations. That's a pretty good turnout. Evaluations come from attendings, chief residents, and occasional nurses, and they are all anonymous. Altough sometimes it's pretty easy to figure out who said what (and sometimes the attendings put names on them). Today, I reviewed all of my evaluations for my 2nd year of residency. I was very happy with all but one of them. This one in particular pisses me off beyond any doubt...

Please recall that my parents' home burned down when I was on call on May 29th. That means I was post call on May 30th when it was confirmed that this was true. I had attendings helping me find flights home for that afternoon and telling me that I shouldn't bother showing up for my next call because family comes first. One even went so far to say that he'd be disappointed if he saw me in the hospital at all for the rest of the week. I'm thinking, "thank goodness I found that kind of residency"!

Anyhow, I finished my rounds post call on the 30th and came home to pack. I then proceeded to make sure that my next call would be covered by someone (on June 3rd). Once that was done, I let his chief and my chief (for June) know the call situation. I was already scheduled to be off on June 2nd. That meant that I would really only be gone on May 31st and June 1st. We switch rotations on the 1st of every month, so I had only ONE more day on my rotation for May. I called my chief for May to let her know that I was planning on catching a flight home to be with my parents as soon as possible (a flight that my attending had helped me find). For the following day, there were three cases with a really great attending that I had originally been scheduled to cover. These were the ONLY cases scheduled for our whole team. When I didn't hear back from my May chief immediately, I started calling other people that I knew would be around to see if they had any availability (chiefs, other 2nd year residents, etc) to cover the cases I was supposed to cover. I found someone that could help me cover at least one or two of my cases. I then sent a text to my May chief again explaining the situation and telling her that I had done my best to get my work for the 31st covered. I was now EXHAUSTED post call doing all of this and when I hadn't heard back from my chief, I cancelled my flight and rescheduled for the afternoon of May 31st. My June chief had already sent me a text saying that taking the 1st off was no big deal and that he would see me back when the weekend was up.

Later that night, I end up getting a slew of rude text messages from my May chief saying that she fully expected me to come in to round on my patients on the 31st. Good thing I had already rescheduled my flight. I showed up the next morning to round on my 12 patients. I saw all of them except my ICU patients who I knew would be seen by the ICU resident and my attending long before I got to them. My flight was scheduled to leave at noon. I figured if I left the hospital by 11am, I could make it. At 10am, I received a voicemail from my May chief on rounds that was absolutely heartless and rude. She demanded I tell her who all I had seen so that she "could see the rest of my list" and then went on some tirade about how "bad things happen in residency" and she "just couldn't believe this" and that she would "talk to me when I get back". All ending with a loud "UUGGH!" and then hanging up. "What an f***ing b****!" I thought. THIS, coming from a girl that left early on other rotations to take her dogs to get their yearly shots instead of using a day off! (And I'm a veterinarian's daughter so I can sympathize, an ability she obviously doesn't share.) By this point, I was finishing up rounds on my floor patients and had actually been in the process of checking out with my attendings to ensure they were ok with my not seeing my ICU patients for the day, etc. They were, in fact, upset that I had even come in to round at all. I tied up a few things and then left the hospital just before 11am and luckily walked right on to my flight at the airport to make it "home"...only to see the rubble and ashes that was once my childhood home, the place my parents had poured their heart and soul into for 30 whole years...

So back to my evaluation: this chief is the ONLY bad mark I received the entire year. When asked if the resident is dependable (with answers ranging from poor to excellent), she marked poor. This was followed by the comment: "She has a problem with passing work off to other residents as well as not always working well with her team. She has a very "me" attitude."


You know what? Screw her. I don't have a "me" attitude, and obviously the other 36 evaluators didn't feel that way. I rarely, if ever, pass off work unless someone asks me to or I absolutely have to based on work hour restrictions. I didn't like having crap passed off to me, so I try to keep it off others when I can. Other than the vacation I had taken that month (as scheduled almost a year prior) and my scheduled days off, no one ever had to see my patients for me.  In that moment, I (and any one else in that situation) SHOULD have a "me" or "my family first" attitude. If they didn't, I, personally, would think less of them as a physician, as a family member, as a human being--much as I do her.

The really awkward part was running into her at a dinner a week ago as she is all smiles with everyone and acting her usual loud, perky, Texan-drawl self. All I could think at dinner that night was "What a fake bitch." Now that she's done with residency and out in practice (and I thankfully can keep my encounters to a minimum), I'm just hoping nothing terrible ever happens to the poor bitch during her career, because IF what goes around really does come around, no one is going to be willing to step up and help her out while her parents or her husband or her kids or her childhood home dies.




Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Blank Slate for Me Too

Lastly, I'll share the 2nd story of my parents new home.

First is my mom's "office". It's simple but lovely at the same time.






The guest bathroom has  a familiar theme...black and white.






As well as the guest bedroom. I love this room--mostly because Mom copied my me on my own design ideas. :) Not really, we just have very similar taste!






This is the beginning of my room. I still await my Layla Grace headboard, my linens, king bed frame, and am on the lookout for some crystal lamps.





This will act as my dresser. I'm filling the shelves with antiqued wire baskets with linen.






This is my bathroom. Like the bedroom, the walls are currently green. This is definitely going to change.





And the other part of my bathroom. I absolutely adore my French linen shower curtain!






This is the other "man cave". Eventually golf prints and decor will fill up this room--much like my parents old "den".





So after just one month, the only furniture my parents lack is my bed and chairs in the guest rooms. The little stuff is coming together too. I know my mom is certainly ready to get all the window treatments hung, and I think Dad just needs more time in the yard before he's convinced that it really is "home". I think it's obvious where I get my love for decorating though! Mom's got quite the knack (and Dad has certainly developed the taste as well).

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Shout Out!

As she very rightfully mentioned, my friend Kendall was my first reader on my blog. I failed to give her a shout out (although I gave my first follower one). Not exactly fair...especially when it's one of your best friends! Lesson learned: don't take friends for granted. :)

Sorry for the absence this week readers, its been a bit of a crazy week. I can't seem to catch up either. Hoping tomorrow night offers me to the opportunity to blog about how divided I feel about the Grey's Anatomy episode, or to brag about my newly tinted windows, or maybe even tell you how great my Dad is for making time for late night drinks when he was in town. All in all, it's been a good week, just a busy one! So no need to fret, my dear, plenty of interesting things about life, love, design, surgery, etc to share very soon!

Ta Ta For Now!

If only Kendall could contribute some great pics of us for this post. :)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

The Doc Will Not See You Right Now

First of all, if any well versed social media docs read this, please advise me on how to protect myself from scrutiny from my own institution (not so social media friendly) and the rules that I mention.

Secondly, I apologize to any readers that don't care about medicine/surgery/residency. This is a long rant on how my world is changing. Feel free to read on, I provide a lot of background information for you to attempt to empathize, if you dare to try.

This morning, during M and M conference, I tweeted about my frustrations with the new intern hours and promised a later blog. I have cooled off for now, but that won't last long.

Some background information:

I am a second year in general surgery residency in a community-based program. I work anywhere from 60-80 hours a week depending on how many days off fall in that week. The current rules state:

  • Maximum 80 hours worked per week (averaged over 4 weeks)
  • In house call shall not exceed an average of every 3rd night (averaged over 4 weeks)
  • Must have one day off per week, a full 24 hours without duty (averaged over 4 weeks)
  • Can only see new patients for a maximum of 24 hours
  • Maximum of 6 hours "post-call" to wrap up and get out of there basically
    • That means our maximum shift is 30 hours long which must be followed by a 10 hour break of absolutely no duty...not including driving time.

I will admit that there are a few occasions where I have worked well beyond the 80 hour limit, but averaged over 4 weeks I think the worst it's ever been is 79 hours. (And I, unlike many residents around the country, don't lie about my hours because I'm sort of interested in what they actually are.) I typically arrive between 5:30 and 7am depending on the rotation. Some days I leave at 3pm, some days 5 or 6pm, and other days later. Post call I usually plan on being there until noon, period. It's not THAT bad. Granted, our social lives still suffer (not to the extent that they did prior to the work hour restrictions). That's right, there used to be absolutely no work hour restrictions for resident physicians. It was common practice for one to work for 24 hours, be off for anywhere from 5-24 hours and be back on for 24 hours with no true days off. Believe me, MOST post call days don't feel like a day off--certainly not when you've been up all night.

Yes, I have fallen ill of the victim mentality on more than one occasion. I get sad that I can't enjoy Sunday brunch EVERY weekend, or that I can't just join the girls for lunch on any given day, or that I can't stay up late tonight because I am on call tomorrow, or that I can't enjoy happy hour on more than the very rare occasion. However, those are small sacrifices for the education I am receiving to be able to adequately and competently take care of my patients on my own when I'm done after five years--and with good technical skills to boot.

In our program, we average around 1000-1100 cases when we are finished with five years. That's a great number! Only 750 are required to qualify for the board examination. So in other words, we operate A LOT. This was a huge part of my placing this program at the top of my list. I wanted to know that I would be comfortable in an OR alone after five years without the NEED for a fellowship. I didn't want a program stuck in the old hierarchial system that prevents most lower level residents from seeing the OR. I wanted a full five years of surgical training, not four and certainly not three.

More background info: in our program, we take in house trauma/acute surgical call every fourth night for about 8 months a year (all the way through)! Chiefs occasionally have the opportunity for home call IF no one on their team is taking vacation. The only times we don't take q4 TRAUMA call (doesn't mean we aren't taking q4 in house call for something else) are:

  • As an intern:
    • Burns
    • ICU
    • Private hospital (without trauma) for two months
    • Possibly an anesthesia month. 
  • As a 2nd year: 
    • ICU
    • Private hospital (without trauma) for one or two months
    • Pediatrics
  • As a 3rd year
    • Colorectal (home call)
    • Cardiothoracic
    • Pediatrics
    • "Pre-call" at our county hospital. 
  • As a 4th year
    • Colorectal for two months
    • Cardiothoracic 
  • As a 5th year
    • One or two months at the private hospital. 
Otherwise, we cover a regular service, usually comprised of either bread-and-butter general surgery, surgical oncology, or vascular surgery. We rotate at private hospital, TWO Level 1 trauma centers (top of the chain trauma centers), and a pediatrics hospital during our five years. Each rotation is one month long.

  • "Main" hospital (also a Level 1 trauma center) 
    • Five people on a team
      • Chief
      • PGY-4
      • PGY-3 typically covers ICU at night
      • PGY-2 typically covers ER
      • PGY-1 usually a surgical intern covers floor at night
    • Four teams
    • Q4 in house call for trauma/acute surgery/floor calls and ICU for all services
  • County hospital (a Level 1 trauma center)
    • Four people on a team
      • Chief (PGY-4 or PGY-5)
      • Junior (PGY-3 or PGY-2) typically covers ICU at night
      • Interns (one surgical and one medicine/transitional/orthopedics intern) cover ER
    • Four teams
    • Q4 in house call for trauma/acute surgery/floor calls and ICU for all services
  • Private hospital 
    • Four people on a team: Chief, a junior, and two interns
    • Average Q4 call (home call as a junior or senior) rotates between the four, only one resident on call every night for floor/ER 
    • A "closed" ICU for the most part
  • Pediatrics
    • Two residents at the pediatrics hospital
    • Q4 in house call for floor and ER
  • Colorectal service
    • Two residents
    • Home call for floor/ER
  • Cardiothoracic
    • One resident
    • Home call for floor/ER
  • Transplant
    • One resident
    • Home call
  • Burns
    • One resident (from our program), one 2nd year and 4th and one or two more interns from another program
    • Q3-Q4 in house call for floor/ICU/ER, only one resident on call each night
  • County hospital ICU
    • One resident
    • Takes Q4 in house call for the ICU
  • "Main" hospital ICU
    • One or two residents
    • No call
  •  County hospital "pre-call"
    • One resident who covers "specialty" service cases during the day: vascular, breast, CT 
    • No call
  • Anesthesia
    • One intern
    • No call
So even though we have 8-9 residents a year, we get pretty spread out among services. Of note, we currently have no specific trauma/acute care service nor do we have a night float system.

The new rules coming up (and forgive me I don't know ALL of them):

  • Interns (PGY-1) can work a maximum of 16 hours in a shift
  • Interns must have 8 hours off between shifts
  • Cannot exceed more than 80 hours per week
  • Required full day (24 hours) off per week
  • Interns cannot take more than three months a year of "night float" call
  • All residents have a maximum of 4 hours post call (total max of 28 hours per shift)

How has our program decided to address this? (I'd love to know others' new plans too). Well, interns will just be working from 6am to 6pm. That's only 12 hours. I thought they were allowed a full 16??? Interns will not be taking night call, period.

That means:

  • At the main hospital:
    • After 6pm, the 2nd year covering the ER, the 3rd year covering the ICU, and the 4th year who is typically in the OR operating on all those patients the 2nd year has seen in the ER are all now required to make up for one whole person's amount of work. 
    • Our chiefs will not be able to take home call. We will be spread too thin if they aren't there.
    • When someone is on vacation, that means only THREE residents will be available as one will be long out of town and one won't be allowed to work. With ~40-45 residents in our program, you can almost plan that there are at least 3 weeks of every month (at the main hospital where we have the biggest team) where SOMEONE is on vacation. 
    • Patients on the floor will not be responded to in such a timely manner because the other residents will all be busy in the ER, ICU, or OR and unable to leave their position immediately.
    • Less OR time for everyone. Cases go uncovered. 
  • At the county hospital:
    • There is only one resident in the ER after 6pm--being someone that is not a resident actually trained by our program (or one that even cares about general surgery). 
    • No extra intern to place lines, chest tubes, etc. requiring the junior level resident to stay out of the OR. 
    • Consults will not be seen in a timely manner. We will likely be seeing consults well into our "post call" hours.
    • Any elective cases will not go after 6pm. No more "clearing the board" and doing chole's at 1am UNLESS it's absolutely necessary because we simply don't have the man power to keep extra people in the OR and off the floor/out of the ER.
    • The wheels will fall off. Less OR time for everyone. Cases DON'T go. Patient's don't get their operation.
  • At the private hospital:
    • Only two of the residents will be able to take call at night. Currently chief residents typically cover nights that we don't have attending staff on ER call. Therefore, this will become a home call situation and chiefs will not be able to take these 4 calls a month. 
    • Interns will not be seeing patients at night to work them up to operate on them the next day. If they did, they would have to leave before their case went.
    • Less OR time for interns but not more OR time for everyone else because they will already be working. 
    • Also remember, we can't take more than q3 call, so we can't just take more calls as juniors or seniors.
  • Transplant
    • Interns can't take night call. No organ donations for you!
    • Less OR time.
  • Burns
    • Interns can't take night call. Only two residents to cover call otherwise (and we can't be q2). 
    • Possibly a shift work thing between interns here could work, but STILL not appropriate.
  • Anesthesia
    • No interns on anesthesia. We can't afford to lose the manpower.
  • ICUs
    • Interns can't take night call. They usually don't anyway. We have managed with this in the past. But interns on the basic services aren't around, this will be detrimental.
  • "Pre-call"
    • Possibly turns into a night float system to help teams out. However, this means one less resident around to cover cases during the day.
    • Less OR time. Cases go uncovered.

Every time residents bring this up, we get brushed off. Even though we are the ones that do the work day in and day out, we are told by our administrators that this is how it will be--without lending an ear to concerns. We have often mentioned specific trauma services, a night float system (which I know from experience works very well for at least one other institution, with less residents). We have also mentioned having interns work 6a to 10p or 2p to 6a, or 6p to 12 noon--the full 16 hour shift. No matter what, "post call" no linger exists in an intern's vocabulary. I'm not sure anyone has the right answer, but just taking one or two residents out of play for 12 hours a day--the most terrible idea ever. Eyes glossing over and continued attempts at dismissal of the subject when we mention the so-called "plan" during the most appropriate time, i.e. when a majority of the residents, involved staff, and the department chair are all in the same room and have an hour to spend together, is also terrible.

All in all we fear everything will fall apart. Part of this is due to surgeons' egos and the fact that we all think we know a better way of doing this. Another thing is the culture of residency, especially surgical residency. One expects another to work. And work hard. There already exists a chasm between the physicians that trained without any work hour restrictions and those of us limited to 80 hours. This will provide yet another divide. Poor little interns are going to catch a lot of flack for something that isn't even their fault. A lot of this is fear of change. In my opinion, that is a well warranted fear.

If we don't have manpower, patients don't get seen, studies don't get ordered, drugs don't GED administered, and surgeries don't happen. In the worse case scenario, that means patients die. gloomy, cynical side of me coming out in full force. Concern for patient safety also coming out in full force.

So patients go unseen, and residents don't see them to learn from them. They operate less. They deal with less problems. They see less complications. They work up less patients. They lose out on valuable training time. That means residency has to be lengthened in terms of years. From my understanding, this is how it is done in Europe where many countries have 60 hour or less work week restrictions. Surgical residency is six years or more.

The other bad thing: how will these new docs function when they are faced with 24 hour call alone? I'll let you infer.

All of this in the name of sleep--the other side of the coin. If residents aren't well rested, they make more mistakes. True. Less mistakes to learn from and more opportunity for mistakes when they are faced with a sleepless night later and have never been forced to function under such circumstances.

Other sad fact, each year this will apply to more and more residents at different levels, not just interns. So you are less trained at EVERY level--not just one year.

Any honest 20-something can tell you that more free time away from work does not necessarily equate to sleep or even rest. It often means more dinners out, more happy hours, more brunch-time mimosas, more pick-up kickball games, more nights out with the family, more time visiting friends in other cities, etc. All of those things I miss. Yes, I miss sleep but I do sacrifice some to gain a life. It will be interesting to see if these residents rate their happiness any higher than those of us not subject to the new rules. I fear not. It will also be interesting to see how many of them sleep during those hours off, as opposed to taste the newest brew at the local bar or take the kids to the zoo.

Perhaps we are sacrificing manpower, time for patient care, and education for more time with family or the sandman. On the other hand, perhaps we are sacrificing manpower, time for patient care, and education for more mimosas.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Everyone Is Entitled to My Opinion


Thanks to Emily (at Simply Southern) for being my first official follower! Thanks for the support and the great blog to read!

So I get the whole place posted on my blog (with a few modifications coming in the near future) and I get a strange twitter comment from a person I don't know (that's a good thing--unknown people following my blog!) that said:

"IMHO: Too much clutter! Afraid I'd fall in a booby trap!" (Their typos corrected of course.)

I'm obviously not much of a minimalist, and I still have some traditional roots in my contemporary style. However, this quote definitely has me thinking, and likely contributed to a good two days of "writer's block" due to fear of more of the same. As of this moment, I'm over it. Amazing what that clawfoot tub can do for a girl! But...

IS it too cluttered? Do I need to spring clean the decor?

What do YOU think, Goldilocks? Is it too cluttered? Is it not enough (unlikely)? Is it just right?

If it were your place, what would you change? What pieces would you do away with? What pieces absolutely have to stay? Are there ways I could make what I have more functional with less "stuff"?

Here's your chance y'all, your opinion matters. At least for today. (Sarcasm. I'm fluent.) Let me know your thoughts.


Thursday, March 17, 2011

Match Day

I certainly hope the luck of the Irish is with all the people involved in the residency match today! I cant believe its been two years since my class matched! Time flies when you're having fun...or working 80 hours a week.

Just two years ago I read my own match letter (and was very happy and surprised)!




Can't wait to find out about our new group of interns (not that we will be seeing them much with their new work hours, but that's another story for another day). I'm on call tonight, so everyone have an extra green beer during the opening March Madness tipoff for me! Happy Match Day!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Allow Me to Reintroduce Myself

Another introduction to my newest blog. Some of the things you'll end up finding here:

1. Musings about life as a general surgery resident (and no, it's not nearly as interesting as Grey's Anatomy)


2. Loving memories and wishful imaginings of travels and journeys


3. Interior design/decorating inspiration, failures, and successes


4. A few tidbits from Brewster and Chelsea (my lovely dogs)


5. Anything else I find amusing, annoying, enlightening, inspiring, confusing, thought provoking, etc.

Today, a post in every category above crossed my mind. So instead of honing in now, I'll start actually creating these posts soon enough. If you're reading this and have ideas for posts you'd like to read, please feel free to comment!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Happy Birthweek!

Mmmmm...Sprinkles cupcakes from Mom!

I've promised myself for months now that I'd get my blog back up and running with a significantly refreshed look. True to my 2011 New Year's resolution, here it is...just in time to take part in celebrating my birthday. Like most self-loving 20-somethings these days, my birthday lasts an entire week. The real joy of celebrating for an entire week is that gustatory satisfaction that comes with dinner after dinner and cupcake after cupcake. Two dozen cupcakes in, I'm still celebrating!

With it's new look and new feel, I'm hoping my blog brings plenty of anecdotal musings about surgical residency (as this consumes at least 80 hours of my week, EVERY week), interior decorating (my favorite past time), antiquing, the occasional political rant, humor and cheer on behalf of Brewster and Chelsea (my children a.k.a my dogs), traveling both solo and with Brewster in tow, and the slew of other random thoughts and events that make up my life as budding surgeon.

In all, happy 26th birthweek to me and happy birthday to my new blog!






 
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